For now, I am going to keep my eyes on him. He isn't "aware" I think that he's making some steps, but he is.
And I don't want to do this during the holidays--if we have to get it over with, it can wait until after Xmas.
I feel in complete control--can walk, can stay, it's all good. If he walks, I am perfectly prepared to let him go. But I know he did this not because he didn't want me, he did it out of fear. There is a difference.
But I have things that I want--and if I don't get them then I will be the WAS I guess. He did this to me once before. What's that saying "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice shame on me". I am getting a degree in nursing whether he stays or not so that I will NEVER be in this position again.
