I know. I feel so weak right now.. if my kids saw me for what I am theyed wonder wtf was wrong with coach. There are so many people who depend on me to set an example even adults that I teach.
Martial arts has been a huge source of support and friends but when I feel like this sometimes I feel like its a burden too.
That's positive thinking. I don't know much about recreational martial arts but isn't part of it mental and spiritual strength?
I have only been trained for offencive fighting when I was a lot younger.
