I intend to live forever - so far, so good

[ClingingToHope]

Here's what worries me. I don't think I'll ever be truly "done."

I posted this a long, long time ago. I still have feelings for my first girlfriend, college girlfriend and the lady I dated before STBXW. When I fall, I fall hard.

So I don't think I'll ever see STBXW without some pain, some sense of "what happened."

A co-worker told me he and his first wife divorced after about eight years. He has been remarried for nearly 20 years. He said everything about the second marriage is better than the first. Yet, not a single week goes by that he doesn't think about the first wife.

My worry is that if I wait until I completely process the pain and get over this I will be very, very old and gray.

Better, for me at least, to move forward by filling my days and putting time between us.

That is a good question on what I would say on any potential date.

As you know the first date has been postponed so if and when I have that conversation, I guess my answer would be along the lines of ... "The divorce isn't final, and I'm not sure when it will be. I'm not pushing anything because she's the one who filed, but I'll be happy when it's over."