Wife is cheating, am sad but confused?

[gutwrenching]

I would have probably told OM's W about their EA

I wouldn't have been so naive about the probability they went deeper undercover

I would have gained self respect sooner

I would have done less self analyzing

I wouldn't have gone melty man at first or second offer to try to reconcile

I would have allowed much less cake eating

I wouldn't have allowed myself to think my situation was unique, it clouded my judgement a little

I would have demanded transparency at attempts to try