Dearest Kat, thank you for your input. I am certain you are right--I do worry about the "codependent factor", but....I think this is different.

There is no desparation in it at all--I am interestingly aware that I am NOT in love with my H. SO WEIRD!!

I am in love with the rest of my life. My goodness, I am excited about what is to come!!!

But the baby steps do keep coming. I told him I want to go to a poker ride tomorrow and he was concerned about the trailer tires, etc.

And he called and asked me to do something for him--acts of service coming out.lol. I will do it I guess. What the heck. Told him I was "happy to help" and he went on quite a bit about how he appreciated that.

He gave me money for the checking account. He is still being good about that.
I am going to go out and have a bit of fun spending some later.lol. I have never been so lavish in my spending EVER!! Budget, for now--out the window!!

Yes, even though this is one of the toughest times of my life, it has been one of the most fun too--it's just bizarre on so many levels. I'm married, I've got OG, I'm having sex, I've got money to spend, I can do what I want when I want to. Physically I have never looked better--I love to exercise and my appetite is really low--no "boredom eating" going on around here!!

I'm contemplating some plastic surgery...no, not the girls--my nose. It has a bit of a bump and I may be nuts but I thinkit has gotten bigger over the years...It makes me not put my hair up in a ponytail. And I run and HATE my hair whipping around me. And I hear that it's a bargain to get a few "nips and tucks" right now...

My sister knows a really good Dr. and I can spend a week with her. I don't think my H would even notice--he doesn't notice haircuts and things like that. Anyway, who cares if he did notice! It is my worst feature and right now it is something I am really self-concious about. I think, darn, I'd be so cute still except for that NOSE of mine!lol. Although it hasn't been getting in the way with my getting attention TOO much.lol.

I just had a friend that got hers done too and she now looks super cute. Shoot--this is the time to go for it!