You are not alone in your feelings - I think everyone here as felt the same way - or feels the same way.
You are "handling" your life. Everyday you get up for work and you do what you need to do. You are there for your kids - you do it. Now stop "handling" and let yourself "feel" it. You have to.
I don't have any friends who are divorced. Reach out to others - find a divorce recovery group. I get a lot of daily emails from divorce care and rejoice ministries. They are helpful!
Go slow - moment by moment!
Look for ways to
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
