It was then that I realized that this whole situation has really been stressing me out a lot more than I cared to admit. I realized that I'm not being absolutely true to myself.
BOY do I know this ^^^^ feeling. Being truthful to ourselves is probably one of the most painful experience one can go through BUT it is at this point that I believe we really begin to understand ourselves – faults and all. It is here that I believe we begin to love and RESPECT ourselves again. Good for YOU Alb.
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I THOUGHT I wanted to pursue a physical R with H (and it was fun don't get me wrong). But that's NOT what I really want. I want him to WANT to be with me. I want him to CHOOSE to be with me. And he readily admits he's not there yet. And I have grown to the point where I'm not willing to settle.
Welcome to the world of being true with what the real Alb need and EXPECTS for HERSELF. You can see your value, your worth, you can now see that your value and worth is NOT tied to what someone else FEELS or THINKS!
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And I have grown to the point where I'm not willing to settle.
Nor should you!
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I can't really say we're on the road to reconciliation
Stop trying to define what “it” is and do for YOU.
You now know what you can handle and what Alb wants for Alb. This is a good place to be.
You have stepped off of the rollercoaster and are really looking inside. The road albeit “rocky”, “smooth”…is the road the YOU Alb determine if, when and how long you walk it.
So now….do you walk for YOUR H OR
Do you walk for Alb
Because Alb chooses to
Because Alb is living a life that she chooses to and Alb NOW knows that this walk is
About HER.
FWIW, I am proud of you Alb.
Sit back…and enjoy what you have
Understand that you drive the ship
Trust yourself and trust how you feel
Keep looking inside and continue to be true to YOU
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
