Blew out my frustration last night over two phone calls from gfs. Phew! That was better.
And-a 180 for me- I was up when H eventually crept back home at 12 30 am. Didn`t meet up with him though he would have heard me moving around upstairs.
Met him this am in better form(me), not obviously avoiding him but light hearted and rushing off about my day`s business.
There`s lots of possibilities re his shutting down-affair/depression/giving up hope of reconciliation/hoping to see more change in me.
No point in second guessing him.
And I still can`t decide what to do re proceeding with separation or not.
So I`m leaving things stand for now.
Just doing stuff I like/need to do. Focusing on my goals and on the kids stuff.
