there is no reaction on anything from h. when he would talk to me he would use statements like, "somebody told me to do this" somebody will do this or that. so since d3 has had soccer, i asked a few weeks ago why he doesn't go, he even told d3 at one time he would but never showed up.
his response was, i'm to tired, i forgot, i got busy. so this past saturday, he said he was going to go, and i gave him my statement, well somebody might be there with us. the saturday came and passed, so i asked again why he didn't go, he said, i didn't want to go you said your bf would be there, my comment was, you would let someone else stop you from being with your kids, that choice is on you, you put your feelings before d3.
(the somebody was my sister) when i gave this response i took it from db as being vague and he naturally thought it was with a man,.
so a few days goes by, i ask him, you are alright with me being with someone else, what he answered i can not remember for the life of me, i do remember him saying well if you guys want to go out and me watch the kids, i say oh thanks, but whatever we do we are a family and the kids are rate there.
i know from being divorced before, that has got to eat at him, it did when i found out my previous h went hiking with another woman, this was even after we were divorced, it killed me, .
i gotta think it bothers him but then again, i do not think he could even recognize that emotion himself,.
what is the point of me asking these things, sure to get a reaction, what i have been doing has not worked so in not chasing cheeseless tunnels, i am trying something different.
here's another thing: my tradiiton is to go to our state fair every year, i mention to daughter, she is like daddy come with us? what am i supposed to give her as an answer, no daddy work, you can ask daddy? what?
she asks her father first response is i don't like the fair, next is well when?
i think that d3 at this young age understands the extent to which her daddy is in her life.
Me 39 H 30 d 18 previous marriage d 2.5 with H s 4.5months with H Seperation Nov09 july i'm dim to dark - set internal deadline
