[quote=Creed] Besides, even if you did go out with your friends, with your H along, it still isn't going to feel like 'the old days', is it? You'll be sitting there wondering why it can't feel like the old days...when everything seemed so normal and right. It won't feel like that at all, I'll guarantee you. You'll be on your guard, and he'll be on his.

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This is true...see, I do go back & forth about being friends with him. 2 weeks ago I asked him if he wanted to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas with me and our youngest son. He got all choked up and said YES. But I realize, that it will be hard on me as well. What would have been my 30th wedding anniversary is coming up on Nov. 8th.
I know he won't contact me but the romantic in me keeps hoping that he would miss me enough to call or see me.

Yeah, my emotions / feelings are still all over the place. I admit that. God, I wish it would end. Like I said, my friend said it would take a year. So I am guessing until March. That is when he left.

Creed, you seem so wise. Did you ask for the divorce ? How long did you wait before you got divorce ?