@SHocked - No I haven't and I dont intend to my lawyer and 2 cop friends of mine think it'll all get dismissed anyways.
COmpleted most of my goals today. She was pretty negative to me all afternoon. I tried my best to ignore it. Hung out with son for about half an hour and played ball with him. Went to a buddist learning center for a class and that was awesome. I think that going to help me let go of this compulsion.
We had one moment where she was iterested in me. One of my 180s is to discover music and enjoy it. he heard me playing the bravery and she was really suprised and asked me to burn it for her. I'm not going to this time. I've dont it a few times already.
The music thing has really helped me connect to her over the last month. Most of my other 180's and self imporovemnt stuff has only sort of interested her. I'm going to count the music thing as a victory for the day.
I am going to let go of my hope, accept that my intense desire for her to return to me is causing me anguish, and try to continue on with the desire she returns, but with out the hope thats causing me to compulsively check on her for signs and what not. I have to accept the moment.
