I could date now I have opportunities but since I am trying to get custody based on the fact my STBEX is acting like a tramp I kind of think it is wise not to be acting like her. I messed up a few times right after separation and always felt bad, and like a cheater so I decided that I was going to be good until the D was final which I have been. One night 4 days before the D was supposed to go to trial I decided I was going to be bad went to spend the night with a "friend" ;-) and could not go through with it. So here I am. I get mad at myself if I do it, and mad at myself if I don’t. I know that in the eyes of the State of Texas me and the STBEX are still married, but I surly don’t feel married. I just have to remember that this is not about me it's about making it as good as I can for my kids.
One thing the past 5 months have taught me is living in limbo sucks you don’t get the benefit of being married or divorced. Oh and cheaters always lie Those are about the only things my I am sure of at this point and time.
M40, W 37 M 11 1/2 y T 13 y D filed 5-18-10 S 5-29-10 OM1 discovered 6-5-10 Counter sued for d 6-16-10 OM2 discovered 8-10-10 OM3, OM4 4 kids 10, 7, & 3 D date 10-14-10 http://tiny.cc/mxzct
