Sometimes I just wish I could go asleep wake up and be through this. Maybe now I’m getting caught up in the fantasy divorce Ideal. I am tired of living in a “Jail Cell” apartment, tired of hearing the nabors bump heads on my wall every night, tired of being in limbo, and most of all tired of not seeing my kids. I think I am ready to move on I miss the companionship and the sandwiches that a steady relationship brings, I think sometimes I will never find anyone who will accept me for me with my kids, I’m ok with that my kids need me more than I need female companionship, but I still miss it. I really think I am doing OK back at the first of this month I was really depressed, the STBEX has replaced most of that with anger for the way she has treated my kids. I’m just rambling I have so many thoughts and no words to tie my thoughts together oh well I have my kids two weekends in a row so that is something to look forward to.
M40, W 37 M 11 1/2 y T 13 y D filed 5-18-10 S 5-29-10 OM1 discovered 6-5-10 Counter sued for d 6-16-10 OM2 discovered 8-10-10 OM3, OM4 4 kids 10, 7, & 3 D date 10-14-10 http://tiny.cc/mxzct
