So..........my H is buying a house.

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Sitting at work, having trouble with focus and what popped in to my head??? My dad walking me down the isle and telling me at that point it wasn't too late to change my mind.

I wouldn't change my mind at this point. I have a lot of good memories. I have 3 wonderful kids.

I also have thoughts of my H saying we were both miserable for 20 years - but I still don't believe that. That is not what I remember.

I know the M is dead.

I know this move for him is more proof that he is not returning to me.

But I can't stop thinking that it's not too late.......even though I think believing this is keeping me from accepting and moving forward for myself.