One more small point for me....I just wish I knew if I was down 800 to 3 or if it's a close game....also wish I knew how much time was on the clock.
My W held her cards extremely close. For months and months she acted cheerful and supportive of whatever I wanted to do in my spare time. It wasn't until after I showed her that she still meant something to me that she opened up and showed me that she was thinking about what I was doing, and that she was jealous of others in my life.
Don't worry about her so much. Do what's right for YOU. Rebuild YOUR life. As I've found out, whatever the "score" is, or how much time is left is subject to dramatic change at any time. If she feels she's losing you, the score might change very fast, in your favor!