Pin - I really don't have much to add. I've been following your sitch for a while now. It's like a favorite TV show where I just come in and root for my favorite character to get it all right and have the feel good ending.
You are getting such great advice especially from Trugritter and Coach...but you are obviously conflicted and it appears that you think this is the make or break decision point. With that in mind, 2 things.
1) I think you need to take a break, a timeout. This has consumed you so much lately that I'm not sure you can see the forest through the trees. You are smart and rationale...I see that in the advice you give others...but right now, you might not be the true Pinhead that we all know. However you do it, you might want to get away. Away from the boards for a couple of days, away from this topic for a couple of days.
2) There is no such thing as a make or break decision point. I believe that because in my sitch I thought I hit that point probably 10 times...and all 10 times I was incorrect. This is life. It doesn't just stop, nothing is irreversable. In fact it is this knowledge that I am having to deal with myself right now, piecing, because I know our decision to work on M can be reversed any time by either one of us
It does not sound like you are ready to make a decision. There is nothing wrong with that right now...limbo land might suck, but sometimes to quote another from DB boards...sometimes you just have to embrace the suck.
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11