I am so sorry. I know first hand just how much this hurts. It hurts like hell. It is the mother of all betrayals AND when you first find out....you feel like ya wanna die. You feel like this is it..this is the last straw. Fu*k this - I'm otta here.
The emotions that you are feeling right now are normal. Feel them. Cry, scream, punch a pillow do what you need to do to let them out.
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Is this the type of person worth standing for?
Is he? Right now I'd say hell fuc*ing NO. BUT later...who knows? I am not telling you to stand or not to stand. I am only saying to step back and calm down. You do not have to decide anything today or tomorrow.
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Is a person who doesn't want to be helped worth standing for?
Maybe he is worth it. I don't honestly know. What I do know is that YOU matter. That your feelings are valid and that right now he is totally fuc*ed up in the head.
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I don't want to be hurt anymore.
IF you think standing = hurt, then no he is not worth standing for. You need to protect yourself. Protect yourself emotionally, financially and physically. You know how you do that? You really detach. and I mean really detach. You let his as* go and start the healing process.
As you are healing and growing you can decide what you want to do. BUT you want to do this from a place of true peace. Not from a place of anger and hurt. You deserve better than to make a rush decision when you are hurt.
Your H is having a major crisis - this is NOT YOUR fault.
Jennifer, you are not alone.
Keep posting...write what you feel.
My suggestion for you is this...
Cry today, write today - do not reply to him AT ALL.
Do not reply to him tomorrow. Do not answer your phone.
Just breath and feel this...
(((((((((Jennifer))))))))
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
