I guess I'll re-phrase to say I was surprised how honest she was. Like I said before, she could have easily just lied to me and deceptively appeared to have more of those 17 covered.
It's hard for me to separate what I know from intel I got and what she has told me. The intel "fills in the blanks". I have a very clear picture of all that happened, and I've been surprised how what she says matches that. I keep waiting for her to say something that contradicts what I know, and catch her in an obvious manipulative lie, and she hasn't done it, yet.
gucci, I've been thinking about something you wrote on here a while back, about how I continue to want someone who doesn't want me. I believe the word you used was "fascinating" (who are you? Spock?) I've realized why that doesn't ring true inside me. It's not HER I want, at least not necessarily. What I want is a successful marriage and a happy fulfilling family life with my wife and kids. THAT's what I've been pursuing, NOT her. I don't pine for her, I have a great time in the company of other women. BUT, she is the one that brings the marriage and family package to me, and that's why I have so reluctant to let her go.
