She's in MLC, but I was weak. Now what?

[ericmsant2]

Crushed

I'm struggling with sending the message that I'm still interested in starting anew while maintaining a healthy level of detachment.

OMG...OMG...I know the feeling dude. Man do I. Here is the thing...we start this journey and it really is about tactics, we feel like we can somehow change them, we feel like our every move, every action will result in a response of some sort from them.

Then

Something happens inside of us..

We see things differently

We feel different - we can't explain it - no of our friends really "get it"...when this happens...IMO

You are beginning to see and feel your growth. When that happens...

You worry less about what message you are sending because really YOU just start being YOU.

The new YOU.

Tactic get thrown out the window. Yeah you will still question yourself BUT you really just start being YOU around her.

What are you scared off?

Scared that you will scare her away? She's already left dude.

Fuc* that - be YOU. Be the new YOU. In doing so, she just may start to realize that YOU really are the better option.

AND

When you can appreciate the time YOU do have with her, with your kids, when you can appreciate where you were and where you are today...well then my friend, you become amazed at just how much patience you really have.

Dude - detachment doesn't mean you cut her off...it means that you love her from a distance. The distance YOU set.

Have you begun to realize that this is all YOU?

That YOU now decide?

That YOU my friend, will ultimately say when it is over.

Be you crushed...be yourself.

One small warning...NO EXPECTATION. Enjoy what God has given you TODAY...worry about tomorrow tomorrow.

Have a good night bud

Eric