Eric, you raised many good questions and I sat here asking myself to be truthful to me. WOW!! I never looked at it that way, it was all about me as well.
Now what should I do ??? I did push him further away to reconciling. I saw him last night because we went to a wake together. He asked me if we could go together. I agreed. Once again, he offered to help with chores around the house. He hasn't lived here with me in 7 months. He told me over the weekend he wouldn't let me fall financially. My meltdown this past weekend was when we learned of someone's death and I said to him, " See, life is short. I know it is easy for you to move forward because you mentally checked out on me a long time ago and I am still not there. I have not detached myself from you." That made him run.
Should I stay away for a while ?? Make him pursue me ? Or call him up and say I admit I was wrong about things.
