First, I will not lecture you or tell you that your better than this. That you every right to be angry. You already know this sh!t. What I will say to you is this....
Go read what you posted to ME today.
Yes, your H is an as*hole BUT you and I both know what is really bothering you about OW. We share those same fears...and you KNOW I know.
Let me ask you to think about or better yet recall a few things...
Who does A call when he get's sick?
Who enjoys her quite time with mommy?
Who drove over to drop off a "blankie"?
Who spends QUALITY time with there kids?
Who is woman enough to put aside her anger AND still give her kids to her as*hole H?
Who is working hard to provide for her kids?
Who is working two jobs for her kids?
Who carried those kids for 9 months?
The who is you!
OW as sweet as pie as she is, as pretty as she is, as X as she is will NEVER, let me repeat NEVER be mommy!
That role is yours sweetie. Yours and yours alone.
Okay knowing you I expect you to think or say to yourself...how does Eric know how can he understand this.
Let me tell you...
Two days ago my mother called me. She called to tell me she loved me and was very proud of me. After all she has done to me...abondonment, not being able to tell me who my father is, allowing the state to take me away from her (she as an unfit mother), after seeing the drugs, the multiple men come into the house, after many many things...
T - I can say that...as angry as I have been towards, I still LOVE her. She is and always be MY MOTHER!
T - nothing you do or your H does or ow does will take that from you! NOTHING.
A,K and R need you! They need you calm, they need your love, they need....
Mommy - not OW.
So take a step back and think (be honest with yourself)...
What do your kids need to see from YOU -
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
