I am so angry right now I hardly have words for it. So I'm venting here in order to try to observe the 48-72 hr rule ...

I picked up my kids today after not seeing them since early Thursday morning when I hit the road ...

And I am greeted by D7s never-ending stories of OW and her D.

I said "D7, you look tired sweetie" and she replied "yeah OW and OW's D7 stayed at the apt last night (a school night) and I didn't sleep much" (OW's D7 is a hyper kid and my D7 is not, she likes her quiet time and likes her sleep).

"Mommy, do you know OW?"
"We carved pumpins at OWs."
"I stayed with OW and she drove me to the birthday party on Saturday."
"OW and OW's D7 stay at the apt with us a lot."
"OW dropped off ice cream money at school for me and S5."
"Mommy, we got to stay at OWs house."

I am sooooo freaking upset ...

The guidance counsellor thought it was too early for them to be introduced to anyone. They have faced a lot of transition in the last couple of months and he is moving again the first of November (to a house that splits the difference between their respective work places ... I figure she'll be moved in by Dec 1st). I expressed my concern about her being introduced even "as a friend" and calmly explained that I knew I could be biased so I even went to talk to the guidance counsellor for her professional opinion. No dice. Didn't matter to him. He introduced them anyway, and they really haven't had any alone time with Daddy ever since.

I can not believe how little concern he has for their emotional well being, and yeah, you can thump me with f@cking 2x4s all you want. I get it when it comes to me. But it kills me to see the absolute disregard for their well-being. He is ripping my heart out ... not for me, I am so done that I couldn't care less about me and him. I will never understand, MLC or not, how a father does this to his kids. There are so many fathers out there fighting for some time with their kids ... and I've never once argued with his right and their need to have him 50% of the time ... and he just gives it away so readily.

I want to rip their f@cking heads off. Selfish pr!cks.

Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc