Says she wants to feel it for me, but doesn't know how.
I'm sorry... what?! She wants to feel it but doesn't know HOW? Please. There's TONS of resources out there for people who really want it. And you offered it to her in the form of Retro and she turned it down. Some major mixed messages she's trying to get you to swallow there. Hope you're able to just keep your head down and stay focused.
It's easy for someone to say that, hard to actually take steps.
