Of course I want my marriage. She doesn't want a divorce. I asked her point blank last night. She can't take this situation any longer, and neither can I. It's not healthy for either of us. She doesn't want to work on the M because she doesn't know how. Says she wants to feel it for me, but doesn't know how. Me staying isn't working to improve how she feels.
I'm not being a victim here. I'm leaving because I don't want to be here while she's so screwed up.
My mistake in my first marriage was getting married in the first place. I didn't lose the passion or desire, so much as confused lust and caretaking for love.
