I think I get what you are trying to tell me - maybe that I shouldn't read into his behavior too much or get my hopes too high. You are right. It is just too easy to get caught up in the rollercoaster and obsess over everything.
For now I think the best thing is for me to sit back and see what he does tomorrow. If he seems to open up I will ask H again about setting up a one time appointment with my therapist. If not, I'm not going to sweat it. Ultimately he has to be the one to decide what he wants, not me.
All I can really do right now is hope he is coming home while I prepare myself for the possibility that he never will. I am doing that. I realized that while it took almost 2 months for me to pick myself up after H walked out, it only took a few days for me to start recovering when I realized he was probably in an affair.
Tonight I plan to go for a walk while my daughter rides her tricycle, eat dinner with some friends and their kids at the park, then go to story time at the library. It has become a weekly routine since H left that I really enjoy.
