Thanks my friends. Maple! So good to "see" you again! Hope you are doing well.
Sooooooooooooo......
My H called last night and wanted to talk reconciliation again. He is now saying he will "go to any lengths" and do anything to not lose me. He said if it takes a few years to rebuild trust, then that is what he is willing to do. He kept saying he has been doing a lot of reading on healing from A's and now he knows I was right (huh, go figure!) about what needed to be done when we were piecing and he was wrong.
There was a lot more than that, but that's it in a nutshell.
At this point, it still is too little, too late for me. I told him, I don't trust his motives, I don't trust him at all period. I told him I don't see how it is even possible anymore. He just kept "validating" me and saying he just wants me to know that is where he is at.
Well, based on my experience of the past year and a half, my thinking is that OW probably turfed him and that is why this is happening. Plus, he is not making it financially on his own and me moving with the kids to my own place made it all "real".
I will never be anyone's consolation prize, and I will never be second best again. I don't know how he could prove to me that is not the case. I don't know how he could prove to me that contact with OW is truly and permanently cut off this time.
I just don't see it happening.
And, it has messed with my emotions.
So, yeah... I was doing really well. Today, I feel emotionally on edge and confused.
