I have prepared myself for D but I'm not sure how ready I am for it. Yesterday and today have been tough. Just when I was beginning to get myself into a better place mentally, I get hit with this news. It knocked me back. I find myself once again thinking of what went wrong with the M, analyzing what I didn't see and could have changed.
I still find it difficult to understand how easy this was for her to leave. How during the entire past year she never once approached me to talk about her reasons for leaving. I am still filled with the same questions today as the day she left. I think those unanswered questions are what's making it so difficult for me to move on. If I was a horrible person to her than I would understand her not wanting to talk to me. But I was a very loving H and I deserved better from her. This is hard.
mza8-
Consider the possibility that something insider HER is broken. That might make it easier to let it all go.
