Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Just journaling a little I guess. I don't know. I know I can handle this. But it has been a rough few days. Piecing still going well, but been some rough stuff to deal with.

W had a down period of sorts, dealing with the past. She was feeling "self pity" over wasting the last year of her life and our life. She needed to talk, so I listened, but it was hard. Learned a ton more of the details of their R, their plans, their A, etc. Proved a lot of what DB and these boards profess...I could do a whole post on things that confirm what the vets preach here. Proved what a snake OM was. Trying to control my W and how she interacted with me, other "flings" he was having on the side, his lack of care/concern for our kids, etc, etc...I could go on and on. My wife said she wanted out of the mess and knew what she was doing was wrong, "but I couldn't stop."

Not sure if any of the piecers there have advice on how to deal with hearing all the details of a long EA

I guess the good news is no secrets and W is talking out loud about all his faults.

That was this weekend. I had gotten past this when OM emails W again. This is the second time. The first being about a month or so ago. This time was a "heads-up" becuase he ran into a friend of ours and they talked about my W and he was providing a heads up to W in case he mentioned something while I was around. The best part of the email was hearing how scared/nervous he was of what my W or I might have told this friend who is also a superior in OM's line of work. I could at least envision this POS, snake in the grass, OM almost pissing his pants!

And on the positive side, once again W immediately tells me about his email and reads it to me. This time he used FB messaging, I'm guessing because she ignored the email to an account they used to use and he stated in that email that he didn't know if she used it anymore.

So we are both still dealing with the pain. We both still committed. We are communicating much better and still working on getting even better. And OM continues to try to rope her back in (in my opinion, my W isn't so sure that is what he is trying to do).