You know the changes I am making I feel like they are for me! Some of the 180 stuff started for her but ultimately I am owning what i like and keeping it and getting rid of what I don't.
Today I feel great!
One thing I am really struggling with even with my new found confidence is to stop checking the phone records. I still think I should do it once aday or so but not as often as I am ( hourly or more). I am very obsessive. I hope it will pass I am trying to release it.
This mornign was an awesome DB morning.
- Woke up - Got my son ready for school - She decided she was coming with us (we have one car) but she seriously considered not doing that which would have meant yet another day where she doesnt do anything. (She doesnt seem very motivated, mind reading I know lol) - We dropped our son off and had positive interactions the whole time - She took me to work and I did not initiate any conversation, just red my book. She asked me to play some music so I put on a Moby concert. She started really getting into it and chatting with me about it. I stayed cool and didn't get ambitious with the conversation, just a pleasant chat between "roomies". When I got to work we were even joking a little biut and I made a joke that made her laugh her ass off before I left. Thats one things shes always loved about me, my ability to make her laugh. Again I didn't get excited, I wished her a great day and left. Perfect! - She was annoyed a bit when we first got up when she talked about going grocery shopping. I told her I didnt know how we were going to handle that yet. She said what do you mean, I said well remember I have my paycheck going to a new account. We decided to transfer grocery money to the joint account so she could handle it but I could tell it annoyed her some . - She tested mea bit announcing she was going to the bar tonight. Its where she usually goes on Tuesdays if she goes out and see'sher friends and the OM. She said she had 3 dollars for cover and was goignt to take some vodka to drink before she went inside. I just acted cool and didnt respond, said OK. - One thing thats very strange is she hasn't contacted the OM in over 24 hours. They usually text a ton. Not reading into it but its odd for sure, I know she doesn't have another phone yet so..
