Please vent here. Write your thoughts down here. Journal. Pray. Tell God everything that you are thinking........ It will be cathartic. Then be quiet........and listen to your inner voice.
You have come too far to send H scurrying back into the tunnel now. If you need to, go very dim for awhile for your mental health.
Remember.........if you are feeling this torn right now, H must be REALLY confused. Find the strength inside to be the woman that he would be a fool to walk away from............Remember, H didn't spend his birthday with MIL, FIL and OW. She must be feeling like the 2nd choice right now and she will probably be acting angry because of this. Maybe that's why H was withdrawn on his birthday? Maybe OW gave him a hard time about doing that?
This is an opportunity for you to look like the better choice............you can go dim gently and still look like H's safe harbor.
