Gosh newmama, BRUTAL. It really doesn't seem fair that you had to go through all that while being so sick. Yes, it's awful that you got help, but it sounds like you were barely in a condition to drive! Glad you got it sorted out. (((hugs)))
You know, if I was VERY sick and needed immediate medical attention, I would probably call STBXH to help me with the kids, even if he had to meet me somewhere. My kids have a father and he can be there for them in the event that I cannot look after them. I'm separated, not a widow.
I know you're super independent, but consider leaning on your WH when the occasion warrants it. You didn't plan on being a single parent.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.