Wife is cheating, am sad but confused?

[HopelessInLove]

W talked about forgiveness and how she has to be able to forgive me and herself. W states she may never be able to forgive herself for what she has allowed to be done to her. Eluding to her life and how it was not how she wanted it, she was forced into it and she allowed it. Just thinking out loud, maybe forgiveness is about allowing OM into her heart and not fighting it. IDK.

I am trying to find little pearls of hope and build off of it. She may never look back, though. I will be fine if she does not come back, I know that, but it still hurts.