I am catching up on your post. I don't agree that you have no control over your sitch. I remember when I felt the same way and was discouraged when my STBXW would not contact me. NCU you control you and what makes NCU happy! Please don't put too much energy trying to mind read what your H is thinking. I can tell you one thing and that he is thinking of his own happiness and not yours. from your posts you sound like a wonderful woman and a great catch and that is what you need to be thinking about. Be the one in someone else's eyes.
I hate the being alone as well. I actually went out on a date yesterday and have been on a couple for the last few weeks. Nothing serious and I admit that I am not ready for that so I tell them up front. But it is nice to have a conversation with the opposite sex, plus dinner and a movie.
