Well, today I left Port Douglas. It was much better than I thought it was going to be as some of the guys hired a car and drove me to Cairns and we spent the day here together and settled me into my hostel and stuff. It wasn't like I just had to get the bus on my own and then wander round feeling sad all day. They've just left me now so I feel a little unsure and lonely. It was just like a family there, they were all so sad to see me go.
Just before I went Joe came up to me and asked if we could go for a walk. We walked down to the beach and just hugged and hugged, at his initiation. It was very hard to walk away but I know it is the best thing. Sometimes making grown up decisions are so boring!!! But I know it is much better this way. After he went off for a walk on the beach, I think in the end he was properly gutted to see me go. I'm going to miss him and all the other people there but I am meeting up with a couple I made friends with there for Christmas so it is really nice to have plans for then.
I feel all vulnerable and on my own!! I'm sure it'll pass by tomorrow but it is just a weird feeling to be out of the comfort zone.
