Keeping her on your brain will result in two things, I guarantee you; the first is that you'll go crazy. The second is that you will push her away for good because your actions will be driven by your obsession.
You have to GAL. Not to win her back, not to impress her, not to make her think she'd be crazy NOT to be with you. But because you've lost yourself in her, and you're going to unravel.
Trust me, you'll need to find yourself eventually, because she'll leave you and then you won't be able to define yourself by your relationship with her. So better to do it now than wait weeks, months, or years.
We're taught all these really silly things about love; love conquers all, love is patient, love is kind, love never fails. Love should be like magic, like arrows through the heart. All these romantic ideals that wordsmiths have used for years to sell books! And songs! And movies!
But it's rare that we're told to love ourselves. Especially love ourselves FIRST. It doesn't mean you have to be perfect; it just means you have to love who you are, what you stand for, what you value. What your N.U.T.s are.
Take a deep breath. Don't post about her or what she does. Change your channel. Write down what you like about yourself. Give yourself 30 minutes. Right down everything, no matter how trivial.
Then write down everything you'd like to change. But now you only have 5 minutes for this second list.
Read both. Keep both handy for when she enters your mind. Then re-read the lists.
