Finding My Way

[Mystik]

Took a nap after my last post, had a dream where my legs wouldn't work and I couldn't get my eyes to open, it was like they were glued shut from exhaustion.

Texted H right before I left to pick up DS telling him to bring back the clothes DS left there last weekend. He texted back to meet at the regular spot at 5:30, we were supposed to meet at 5. I was only a few blocks from home so I turned around, waited a half hour then left again. When I was almost to the exchange spot H called, I ignored it. Then he texted to meet at Dunkin Donuts instead. I waited until exactly 5:30 then headed over to Dunkin Donuts. I still had to wait another five minutes after I got there before H showed up with DS, this time he had the courtesy to be by himself. DS wanted to get a donut and I told him I didn't have a dollar so H said he had planned on using his debit card and I could follow him through the drive-through or we could go in. I said if he wanted to take DS in that was fine, so he did. They came back out and DS offered me a munchkin, I tried to decline but he insisted so I took it and set it on the passenger seat. I heard H murmur to DS that I was sad and to give me a few minutes. He then said good-bye to DS and thanked him again for the birthday presents and left.

I drove home, crying on and off on the drive. DS asked why I was sad and I told him because H left us. So he told me to go home and relax. So here I am, home and trying to relax.