Well I am certainly going to try and do this diabetes thing with diet and excercise. I was eating really healthy before, so that is why doctor said probably stress. Sugar just keeps going up and up and up...and I was controlling sugar well with diet. Oh well.
Getting ready for a Saturday shin-dig at my house. Ladies are coming over to celebrate our "Inner-Witches." ;>) A little conjuring of fun, movies and good food.
Have a good weekend. So may it be
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"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Well,party was fun. Had a good time watching old movies and doing the voices for the actors. Lol. everyone participated in that and it was quite funny. Watched a 1931 Bela Lugosi movie. Food was wonderful-homemade vegetable soup, finger sandwiches, and desserts of all kind, and mulled cider.
Only two people were party poopers and wouldn't dress up. But we still had a great time.
An interesting thing happened also last eve. I got a phone call from a woman that belongs to same organization as I do. I thought she was giving a courtesy call, as I have not attended meetings in quite some time. I have been NC and H would be at those meetings as well. Only H would be in a different group, but still.
So as I assumed that is why she was calling, I said I would try to come to next meeting. Well, She paused for some time and said she had some bad news. I said, "oh!" SHe says I am going to be in same situation as you...my H walked out on me...moved out in the night. I said, "I am sorry." She thought I was divorced and I said no H had just filed in Aug. The people there didn't know of our sitch. My H had confided to hers I guess.
Her H is having affair with a person from the same org. I was so sad to hear it. She started to tell me about his behavior..how he wouldn't touch her, look at her, talk to her. I said does he cling to the edge of the mattress...she says YEAH! I said ..mmhmmm....say mean things, then seem like himself?...YEAH....blame you for everything?...YEAH. I said could be mlc.
But the kicker was when she was telling me how he must have moved out in the night...and she says...guess who helped him? I said .....Oh don't tell me... My H? She said yes. I was so pissed. Not only does he destroy our family, but he helps to destroy another. It really was awful to hear that. I am going to meet with her in a couple weeks for lunch.
It is like an epidemic...awful. There is so much of it going on.
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An update- A neighbor of mine saw H at a community breakfast where she was working along with H mother. H brought OW and she was hugging up m-i-l and giggling and laughing. OW also ran up to H relatives to give them hugs as well. My neighbor has known my H for 30 years of our marriage and they had a good friendship. She is not happy about what he has done. Anyway, I guess H talked to neighbor and said, "I suppose you don't think much of me after what I have done." She didn't respond to him.
I don't know what to think of that. Neighbor said OW was like a teenager with her laughing.
Any thoughts on his comment? Nothing to think on his comment? Same old mlc BS? I thought it was a WTF sort of thing. Lol.
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IMO they know what they are doing is wrong - and don't care, or have to try to believe they don't. As my H put it: "to you and the rest of the world it is wrong, but it is all right in my head - and I don't care what anyone thinks."
My guess is he acknowledged your neighbor and simply stated what he believed to be true.
I think those of them that feel/express guilt almost need others to outwardly disapprove, so he may have been fishing for confirmation that neighbor felt that way.
"Do not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness." - James Thurber
That needs to be your mantra. You can't waste your time trying to understand it because it is incomprehensible (even to them if they are honest with themselves). Keep the focus on you!
"Love me when I least deserve it, for that is when I need it the most"
M18 Me39,H42 D16 Bomb 1/10 Moved out 3/10 OW 6/10 H wants to R,OW gone 11/10 H moves back 5/11 H wants to wear rings again 9/11
The more energy and time YOU spend looking at H and OW is time and energy NOT spent living YOUR life and looking inside yourself.
Now...raise your right hand and repeat after me...
I BM, solemy swear to let my bat chit crazy H go and to focus on me and my happiness.
I BM, swear to focus on detaching from H's craziness since I cannot control H.
You can put your hand down now and resume living YOUR life.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
I am raising my right hand. I solemnly swear to let my "bat chit crazy" H go and focus on ME and MY happiness. I swear to focus on DETACHING,(said through a mega-phone)from H's craziness since I CANNOT CONTROL MY H...(also said through mega-phone).
Well, now I have taken an oath...I will do my best.
I have a little story for you. We had some bad wind and rain here this week. OW was out getting groceries. While putting groceries in trunk,a big gust of wind took trunk lid and went BAM...on OW's head...knocked her to her knees......I am a big believer in Karma.
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