I'm also grateful and blessed to have friends here that I can turn to to set me straight and remind me that if I can still have this strong of a reaction, I'm not done yet...
Seeking, I agree with all of the things everyone has pointed out above. You are such a voice of wisdom on this board that it is easy for us to forget that you are struggling, just like the rest of us.
What you wrote above, really jumped out at me. I have been dealing with frustration since my 2 year bomb anniversary and have thought about walking away many times......but the intensity of my emotional reaction (i.e. anger) showed me that I'm not done yet........I think that YOUR anger tells you something too........just as you wrote in the quote above. Find someplace safe to have a 'meltdown' or a loud convo with God..........and then spend some time thinking about all of the things that you are thankful for. You already started your list above.
