As I told Irish recently, who amoung us doesn't have a dark night of the soul from time to time. You have been a steady inspiration not only to me but to so many others here. Sometimes we forget you are here for the same reasons we are.
So, feel your feelings. Get Angry, but in a productive way. Vent if it makes you feel better. (I bet you didn't know I was a venter, did you?)
Lance is so right. Here you are a full year later, and there is no divorce. That speaks powerfully of something. Something he feels down deep inside but is unable to express, perhaps.
It's been raining for two straight days here. Foggy, misty. Leaves are changing. Don't know what the weather is where you are at, but for me, outside is really God's church. So, figuratively speaking, go to church this morning, and have a long, uninterrupted talk with God, all alone. Betcha feel better.