TBH my gift is how far I've come from the mess that I was a year ago. I'm so grateful for this journey and realizing just what I'm made of. I have not only found the survivor in me, I'm finding the thriver.
Every once in a while there are still things that happen that have the power to get to me somewhat, and I'm not saying there won't be some rough stuff coming down the pike, but all in all I'm doing so much better! The lows aren't as low and don't last as long.
I'm moving forward, living my life, and loving H from a distance. I know that I'll be better than OK no matter how my sitch turns out.
Thank you for your kind words. I'm honored that you referred to me as special because it came from a lady that truly is.
Punkin,
I wasn't sure where the mud bath thing came in. I had to go back and look and sure enough I missed a post from you. Now, I'm not sure about a mud bath but if I could get access to a hot tub...
Sweetie, you're doing just fine on this journey. You already have the grace, patience and wisdom to deal with this and anything life throws at you.
You're a strong woman Spunky Punky, and I have no doubt you're going to be better than OK.
Thought I'd better update my thread before it gets lost.
I've had some struggles of late. Things that H is doing that I thought I was past have bothering me after a year of doing this, got to me.
Yep, I find that I'm still jealous of the things that H and ow are doing that were part of the dreams that I thought H and I would be sharing.
It's not meant to be at this time and may never be again. Dear friends have reminded me this is all in God's hands and the best thing I can do is just keep living my life...
Seeking, it's all part of the grieving process and we have no choice but to face the jealousies and work through them as painful as they are. Be kind to yourself; your dreams as you knew them are in shatters. With time you will create wonderful, positive dreams for the new you.
