Thanks guys. I guess it was a good ending, I feel a little sad but at the same time a little excited - as endings should be.
I'm glad I was able to express a little how his actions had made me a feel at a time when he was open to listening, had I done it any other time he wouldn't have 'heard' and it would have come off as whineing or nagging.
It's so funny because I have no stability at the moment or a more conventional life plan and my whole body is screaming for it. Someone described what happened to me (us all) as a snow globe. Everything was solid and settled and then everything got shook up and all the bits and pieces come slowly floating to the bottom again. I quite liked that analogy. I know I should be embraceing this time, and honestly most of the time I am and loving it, just sometimes it would be nice to have the stability of sharing responsibility with someone else.
P.S - I know it sounds like I chose to go out with a bit of a loser and the qualities I have described here sound loserish but he really was a great guy. So funny and sweet and had a real honest quality which I just loved.
