I have not Idea what I am doing or Why??

[rb1967]

Please help anyone? I am rereading the divorce busters book for the 2nd time. H and I are in marriage counseling. I think I may have made the grave mistake of having several sexual encounters with my H. First, I thought this was going well "helping" -has been going on for about a month- Now I am not sure. He said in our counseling on Wed that he is still numb and has no emotion towards me of course however he loves me. Ouch! Anyway,what should I do now. I feel like I need to stop but at same time am afraid if I dont then it will go further downhill. Not sure where he is with OW. I have stopped asking about this. It is on the agenda for our next counseling session. Also H has seemed to have taken many things I have said over the last 20 years as a reason for our “horrible” marriage. He says he doesn’t blame me however it sure seems like it. Is this that don’t believe what the say rewriting history thing.
Also, it seems like he is confiding in everyone but me. He tells me conversations he had with other people about his feelings that he never even discussed with me. Which then leads him to say he communicated his feelings with me. He also doesn’t have a lot of answers in counseling although it seems he is participating somewhat.

Please help