Have that R talk and hug the other day has heal some parts of us.H makes eye contact with me more and with softer eyes. And the co operation on the kid issue is huge.
So, I was a little disappointed when he announced last night that he was going out and would be staying over. I don`t know where or with whom. I have no idea if there is another woman on the scene.
Didn`t show my disappointment of course. Just got all dressed up and headed out before he did. Smiling and in good form.
He`s away for the next couple of days with our younger son, and daughter. I`ll be here for elder son though he won`t need much minding so I`m indulging myself in all my favourite therapies;sleep,meditation, painting, running,reading.
Currently re reading Co Dependant No More. It was written for me, I think.
I can see the possibility of a new Marriage looming on the horizon. I don`t have any control over whether that ship will swing my way or not. All I can do is keep my changes,meditate, pray and accept whatever happens. ` Read about Jon Kabitzin(?)`s lovingkindness meditation today. Its about feeling love for yourself in meditation, then sending that love to your loved ones, and those who are more difficult to love. Worth a try.
