Don't get me wrong my feelings change each day.
One day I am angry and feel I deserve better, the next day I miss my XW and the next miss my kids terribly. I always miss my kids.

I had to email back and forth today about Halloween costumes. I have the kids on Halloween weekend but they are going trick or treating with my XW.
She wrote "If you want to come around with us you are more than welcome!"

I just never know if I should go anymore. On one hand I welcome any extra chance to be with my kids. My kids would love me to come.
At the same time I feel that it sends a message to my XW that this is all just fine, when it's NOT.
Michele says accept some invites but not all. I get invited about once every 6 weeks. Most of the time my ex is cold when I am with her. It leaves me feeling so empty and heartbroken the next day.

Anyone want to chim in about me going trick or treating with my kids?
I know many of you out there are saying that "you wished you could hang with your X, but let me tell you it is not easy ! It's so hard to hang with them knowing they feel nothing towards you. All I want to do is hug my 2 kids and XW and never let go.
BTW I have a typical WAW with all the trimmings.;)


Me/W: 46/36
D7.6/S6
T/M: 7.5/6.5
Bomb 12/05/07
D final: 03/03/09