I think I'm getting it. Slowly, but getting it. I am trying to control her - how she responds to me, what she should think, trying to change her mind, etc. etc. I should just let her make the contacts with me when she is comfortable and let her guide herself. She'll let me know when she's ready - as evidenced when she does reach out to me. I went back and reviewed my journal and noticed how everytime I did something that was controlling, she pulled back. Yet, when I left her to herself she would engage me. I thought she was engaging me just b/c I was 'dark.' But that wasn't it. She saw me as not controlling her. Most the times I still responded to her contacts. This last time I didn't respond to her at all (completely ignored her)and she saw me as controlling again. And I was - trying to control her response, etc. Saw it from a different viewpoint. Thank you, Mr. Bond.
