Just don't know what to do anymore

[Starsky309]

[quote=Coach]

looks like we found another invite to the poker game this weekend. Starsk the house rules are the noob has to bring the cigars, so you got them. [/quote

What??? Noob??? Why I oughta . . . Did you know that I --

Oh, nevermind. Connecticut or Maduro?

Starsky

[Nvrgivup]

Yes 3 years of limbo, and yes hell that even I can't imagine sometimes. And I don't want to live like this anymore thats for sure. Letting go is the answer and I do know that, but theory and practice are at odds right now. And Pin mentioned odds, whatever the numbers actually are, I do realize that they are slim. (just for ref, she doesn't live with OM, though hardly makes a diff lol) As far as me just going ahead and filing myself, well it will likely come to that and I have accepted that I may. What bothers me is I've had to do everything to satisfy her wanting out if that makes sense? She wanted to sell the house, did nothing, so eventually I did. She wanted the separation but wouldn't move (said she would several times) so I moved, now she wants the D, but won't file and everyone is right I certainly could. I'm just kinda sick of making the sacrifices so she can have what she wants. The M wasn't perfect, I certainly wasn't perfect, but I was willing to do just about anything to try, and I guess I feel like she is the WAS, she just can't pin everything on me, and expect me to be the one to do all the dirty work too? Am I just expecting too much for her to take some (any) responsibility?

[TimeHeals]

just for ref, she doesn't live with OM, though hardly makes a diff lol)

Oh, it makes a difference alright. He might of got tired of her by now

[Nvrgivup]

I can only wish lol.. Nope actually she just dropped off the kids 10 mins ago, wearing the jersey of "my" team.. she'd never watch a game with me let alone wear a jersey, but OM apparently is a fan too.... so for him? I know sounds bitter... well I have my days lol.

[Nvrgivup]

Well I guess as I wrote that last update, she was filing the papers. Was served at work today. I know I will be fine, but I guess I just never really believed it would come this far? Appreciate the advice that you all gave me though, thank-you.......... moving on!