Just don't know what to do anymore

[Nvrgivup]

Yes 3 years of limbo, and yes hell that even I can't imagine sometimes. And I don't want to live like this anymore thats for sure. Letting go is the answer and I do know that, but theory and practice are at odds right now. And Pin mentioned odds, whatever the numbers actually are, I do realize that they are slim. (just for ref, she doesn't live with OM, though hardly makes a diff lol) As far as me just going ahead and filing myself, well it will likely come to that and I have accepted that I may. What bothers me is I've had to do everything to satisfy her wanting out if that makes sense? She wanted to sell the house, did nothing, so eventually I did. She wanted the separation but wouldn't move (said she would several times) so I moved, now she wants the D, but won't file and everyone is right I certainly could. I'm just kinda sick of making the sacrifices so she can have what she wants. The M wasn't perfect, I certainly wasn't perfect, but I was willing to do just about anything to try, and I guess I feel like she is the WAS, she just can't pin everything on me, and expect me to be the one to do all the dirty work too? Am I just expecting too much for her to take some (any) responsibility?