Y&our not hurting my feelings by any means. I have all of those thoughts that you have highlighted and yes I do think she needs that dose of reality.
Maybe I should have put my foot down earlier. I am not a money drivern person, yes I like to do what I do but money has never been my main driver. If I have it she is welcome to it but I just cant take the accusations that I am holding it from her. For all the difficulites in India I have always 'knon' that it would come off. if it works I will never have to worry about money again - so I didnt mind running uo a bit of debt because I knew I could clear it. It was never the money I was just happy that we had seemed to fix our problems up.
I dont know about her not wanting the marriage, I really dont. Some times over the lsat few nonths I have heard the absolute honesty bin her voice about moving ahead but then this evil witch raises her head.
Have I done my share - I dont know. I have made so many mistakes in the past but I have got to a stage that if this is to be the way it is to be then so be it for where we are at the moment.
Its funny at the moment I dont feel much of anything. No anger no real upset just resignation to it all. Had a few drinks with my partner over here tonight and he said more or less what you said. He hs watch this thing get to me over the last year and a half.
Thanks missy for your post.
Andrew
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