A new Start to a bad ending.

[Atossup]

Ok, I am trying to change my attitude, just lack of sleep keeps me wiped. when I met her the other night I looked great! I've lost 20 pds, fit in size 34 jeans again and have been working out still so I was buff. I know she noticed that, even told me so. Compared to OG I rule!

Back to it. I am trying hard to get off the damn boat and get my land legs back and you guys are helping me. As I said I will not hear from her this weekend, I will bet but she will start emailing, calling monday to get me back on the boat and it will not happen. I plan on being DARK until her D-day the 30th when her S party is supposed to be and than she will (haha) break it off with him! BS

3 days later is my B-day and she will try to get a hold of me. Her s's weedding is the 28th and at that time I will file. Thats my plan

[TimeHeals]

Umm... ya gotta sleep.

I think the first thing we tell everybody on day 1 if they are all about drama is: fitness routine, proper nutrition, and proper sleep.

You need those three things as a foundation to build a positive attitude and healthy perspective on.

[Atossup]

Oh I know. I am tired though but trying to see my plan and put it into affect. She will be pissed at first until the W/E booze and OG hangover wear off than the calls will start for "more stuff". She has as much stuff as I could give her. Than the B-day call will come, than the Her staying on my healthcare will come which she asked me to keep her on. That closes on the 19th and I will play that till the last minute. I'm not sure when her enrollment period is so she wants to stay on till then.

[Atossup]

Oh man I'm on call this W/E and have nothing to do. I am soo tired after this week of her games and pretending and lying. Of course today she is MIA except she is at work, I see her on my yahoo messenger. Geez this sucks to be used..No more!!

[TimeHeals]

I see her on my yahoo messenger

I'm pretty sure there is a feature on there to remove somebody. Or don't login to begin with. Danged thing loads your PC with spyware anyway.

[soleil]

I say delete her or delete yourself from messenger. It does no good checking up and wondering about her... but you already knew that.

Have a good weekend/Toss/Rondo

[Atossup]

Well I did it. Its Friday and we talked briefly. I told her its best we don't talk anymore and she of course said fine. Said she would talk after she see's Co. I just said goodbye! Time for reality to sink in. I will file in Nov but start calling L Monday. Gonna ask her to sign over house to me and get her own heatlh insuarnace and car. Going dark now. Wish me luck!

[steady]

I told her its best we don't talk anymore and she of course said fine. Said she would talk after she see's Co.

Huh? She said, "of course that's fine, but I'll talk after I see Co." Do you think she really heard you? "You're right, I agree we won't talk, BUT I'll tell you that YOU WILL TALK TO ME AFTER Co...lol

She's calling you on your statement. She thinks it's a bluff. Don't crumble. Do it.

[steady]

Also wanted to say Robx and Coach are giving you advice which is spot on. You will only get respect by drawing and enforcing boundaries which are healthy for you. My psychiatrist told me - "When a woman loses respect for her man she leaves him."

You can't make anyone respect you but you can COMMAND respect by drawing and enforcing healthy boundaries.

God knows I wish I had done that two years ago. Not because of anything to do with saving my marriage, but more so for keeping my own self respect and integrity.

[steady]

What we can't edit posts anymore? I tried after 36 seconds and it said the post can't be edited because of the alloted time passing?

What I also wanted to add was this -

It would have saved me a lot of pain and suffering too.