If you allowed yourself to envision life without your h, in a positive light, as in, with you actually enjoying yourself, what would that look like? Force yourself to do it and be detailed! Then begin to create it. A fulfilling life without your h.
If you cannot do this, it's the same as saying that if he were killed in an auto crash you'd surrender to eternal grief and shrivel up and die. Would you really do that? If not, then you know that it's partly ego creating the misery you often feel. The rejection of a man who left by choice. Yes I understand that. But our ego IS within our control. Re-direct your ego into self respect and make a good life for yourself without your h. If he ever "wakes up" and IF he's willing to make the numerous changes that would likely be needed for you to feel secure with him, and could do it long enough, THEN you can address all that. Meanwhile, how's your new life going? What are you doing to be happy as a woman with wonderful healthy kids?
PS Lest any of us forget, 95% of women in the world don't have what we have going for us. Perspective...
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
